You [one]

When you arrive you slowly start to take over
You invade my thoughts
Swarm around in my head
You take a hold of me so tightly I cannot breathe
You consume me
So much
that I cannot find me.

I am paralyzed with you
swimming through my veins
Poison
Flooding my cells
Drowning everything that wants to come forth
Everything that is within me.
Nowhere to go in my mind without you there
Not even a tiny crevice, an alcove where I can take refuge, from you.
And so I move. I dance. I shake. I sway. I allow my body to do whatever it would like to.
And there I am again. I submerge and you dissolve.
We cannot be together yet. Maybe someday.
But not today.

© Jackie L Hutchings | August 2018